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| Monday, December 18th, 2006 | | 1:41 am |
Updates on me
Well...up until today, I've been really happy. A lot of really awesome things have happend in my life, mostly coming down to I've found someone who seriously makes me happy. She's really made me just enjoy my life again, not to say that I wasn't having fun before, it's just nice that there's someone else there ya know? But yea...back to the real reason why I posted. Today started off like any other day, hanging out, watching football. At the end of the Giants game, I got a call from my mom. Long story short, I found out today that my uncle has prostate cancer. But the fucked up thing is, this a person whom has basically written me off. I hardly talk to him, and when I thought about him up until now, I didn't have very many positive things to say. And now he has cancer and I can't stop thinking about it. It's been fucking with my head all day. On one hand, I'm dealing with the man whose basically treated me as nothing more then a dollar sign, but on the other, it's blood. I don't know...sometimes it seems that my life has just been a serious of small moments of happy only to have it be shit on. Well, now I'm rambling, I'll keep those who want to know updated. | | Friday, October 6th, 2006 | | 1:34 am |
Honestly, do I have a fucking sign that says "Walk all over this man". Becuase at the this point Im convinced that I'm nothing more then just a little protition of other people's fun...basically just an enteratainment portion of life. Oh, there's Choma....ISN'T HE SO MUCH FUN. I swear to god, I'm a fucking doormat. That's it, I'm a human doormat and that's all I'll ever be. Nothing more then a stepping stone for the rest of the world. Don't bother with me, anyone, I'm just a fucking phrase in the long story of an important tale. Have a greater life then my simple moments. I'm just a little fucking meaningless asshole with no heart. That's it...that's all. | | Friday, August 25th, 2006 | | 12:02 am |
| | Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 | | 11:00 pm |
Warning:Emo
Yea, sadly an update for months is going to be an update on bad news. More or less, within the last two months or so, my mom and has gotten more and more sick. And to really honest, it's freaking me the fuck out. I don't know exactly how to handle this. It's almost as if even when I went through my shit when I was younger, I kinda just thought that my mom would always be there. And seeing her slowly break down is really really starting to get to me. I don't even know how to describe how it feels to see someone you looked up to for strength for so long, being beat by her own body. It's just really fucking tough realizing the double edge sword of life. It's the greatest gift to ever have, but it's also the cruelest part of life once someone that has affected it is being taken away from you. I don't know man, I just don't know. So if I can ask for anything, just think for my mom and pray or whatever the hell it is you do for her. I'd really appericate it. And I guess thanks for (kinda) listening to me. | | Tuesday, July 18th, 2006 | | 12:23 am |
| | Monday, June 12th, 2006 | | 1:34 am |
So let's see what's new. Taking a summer course so that I don't have pay a million dollars to go UNH. Still pissed that I don't have a job yet. Hopefully I'll be able to start this week so I can have some money for next week and the weekend after when I go to visit Brian. I think I'm gonna run CT Limited Champs...I just need to figure out how I'm getting there. Other then that, I'm just enjoying the hell out of the World Cup and yea, life aint that bad...well with everything other then Modo. | | Tuesday, June 6th, 2006 | | 2:51 pm |
I'm so fucking annoyed with MODO at the moment. Last draft I did I had a deck with 12 2 drops, 8 3 drops, Living Inferno and Dissimisser. Games 1 and 2 I draw a million land and no buisness but I'm able to pull one of the games out. Game 3 I mull my opening hand because it was a one lander vs an aggressive deck. Keep two lander and never draw another. Draw out my deck to see where the next plains was, 10 fucking cards away. So within the first 18 cards..there should be 1 plains, when there's 7 of them in a 40 card deck. RIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHT. Such bullshit. Didn't help the fucking guy went Brute, Bloodscale, Freznied Goblin when I was hosed/screwed games 2 and 3. Ugh, I'm so annoyed it's not even funny. I don't even know why I bother fucking playing anymore, it's taken so much joy out of it. | | Saturday, May 20th, 2006 | | 6:05 pm |
I'm seeing AFI on June 23rd at the Roseland Ballroom. Oh, I'm ALSO seeing Bloc Party on July 29th. Suck it bitches. | | Friday, May 12th, 2006 | | 3:27 pm |
I WANTED TO PLAY BEFORE THE FUCKER RAISED!!
***** Hand History for Game 4250522551 ***** 0.50/1 Texas Hold'em Game Table (Limit) - Fri May 12 15:16:22 EDT 2006 Table Table 95992 (Real Money) -- Seat 5 is the button Total number of players : 6 Seat 1: dougfresh55 ( $29.87) Seat 2: AMHEBCEPABHO ( $26) Seat 3: Izzycacnio ( $10.50) Seat 4: minx34 ( $4.75) Seat 5: tomchoma ( $25.64) Seat 6: meatmeister ( $31.37) meatmeister posts small blind (0.25) dougfresh55 posts big blind (0.50) ** Dealing down cards ** Dealt to tomchoma [ 7h, 2h ] AMHEBCEPABHO folds. Izzycacnio raises (1) to 1 minx34 calls (1) tomchoma folds. meatmeister calls (0.75) dougfresh55 calls (0.50) ** Dealing Flop ** : [ 7c, 2s, 7d ] meatmeister checks. dougfresh55 checks. Izzycacnio checks. minx34 checks. ** Dealing Turn ** : [ 2d ] meatmeister checks. dougfresh55 checks. Izzycacnio bets (1) minx34 folds. meatmeister calls (1) dougfresh55 folds. ** Dealing River ** : [ As ] meatmeister checks. Izzycacnio bets (1) meatmeister folds. ** Summary ** Main Pot: $6.50 | Rake: $0.50 Board: [ 7c 2s 7d 2d As ] dougfresh55 balance $28.87, lost $1 (folded) AMHEBCEPABHO balance $26, didn't bet (folded) Izzycacnio balance $14, bet $3, collected $6.50, net +$3.50 minx34 balance $3.75, lost $1 (folded) tomchoma balance $25.64, didn't bet (folded) meatmeister balance $29.37, lost $2 (folded) | | Tuesday, March 28th, 2006 | | 11:53 am |
So I've grown extremely annoyed with the people that are living in my apartment. For one, I've gone why beyond that of someone who is being nice, and I'm starting to feel as though I'm getting taken advantage of at the moment. I'll allow someone as much help as they need, but I'm not going to allow someone to shit on me for their own personal benefit. I for one am growing extremely annoyed with having to deal with other people's problems...they said they were going to get an apartment right away. It's been over a month. Stop wearing on my patience, because sooner or later, I'll fucking snap and I won't care what happens. Fuck today. | | Friday, March 24th, 2006 | | 4:52 pm |
So after four god damn years, I finally played Beanhouse. For those of you that don't know, Beanhouse is an open mic night at UNH where anyone can just sign up and play/do whatever the hell they want to on stage. After many attempts that simply went nowhere, I finally found someone that was willing to practice enough and get the songs down to the point where you actually sound good enough to perform. Even though we did screw up a bit, it was definately a good fucking time. It was the first time I was actually nevrous doing anything in forever, I mean I know that in retrospect I totally shouldn't have been, but there where definately some butterflies right before I started to play. All in all, I kinda knew that I was gonna fuck up a little bit, it definately was nice to finally have something like getting on stage for the first time is kinda nice. Alright...I'm sick of writing, peace fags! | | Friday, March 10th, 2006 | | 3:11 pm |
What the fuck
Honestly...what the fuck man. Why the fuck is UNH so against people having a good time. In about a months time, I might have my list of roommates kicked off campus to 5...what the hell man. I'm never gonna have friends then...because I guess I get some awesome thing about myself that gets other people kicked off campus. Fucking a man...fuck UNH. | | Thursday, March 9th, 2006 | | 9:13 am |
What to do before class...LJ OF COURSE!
So, what to say to my fans. Well, not much as really changed in my life. I'm going to the casino this weekend, which is going to be fun just based on the people that will be attending. I'll play cards and probably win, just need to not get so drunk in the process. Yea, I think i've lost my lj mojo. Fuck ya'll. | | Sunday, February 26th, 2006 | | 11:45 am |
So lately a "friend" of mine has been annoying me greatly. This was a "friend" that I did consider to be a very good friend, extremely close, and for the most part someone I could tell anything to. But suddenly I'm not even seeing this person no more then once a week. We used to hang out everyday. Now I don't see her hardly ever, and for the most part, I have to intiate all the communication. What is it about me that makes people feel as though I'm just easily dropped without having to worry about it. It's really been bothering me, I've told her how I feel and it just seems to roll off her back. | | Monday, February 20th, 2006 | | 8:30 pm |
| | Monday, February 13th, 2006 | | 8:19 pm |
| | Sunday, January 29th, 2006 | | 2:34 pm |
Slump
***** Hand History for Game 3458863148 ***** 50/100 Tourney Texas Hold'em Game Table (NL) (Tournament 19665553) - Sun Jan 29 14:07:13 EST 2006 Table Table 67173 (Real Money) -- Seat 6 is the button Total number of players : 6 Seat 1: TheAshes05 (2125) Seat 5: jtownshend (745) Seat 6: tracking105 (2470) Seat 7: Leonardbump (875) Seat 9: Rage112183 (1165) Seat 10: Cypress_Ag (620) Leonardbump posts small blind (25) Rage112183 posts big blind (50) ** Dealing down cards ** Dealt to Rage112183 [ Td, 3h ] Cypress_Ag raises (100) to 100 TheAshes05 folds. jtownshend folds. tracking105 folds. Leonardbump calls (75) Rage112183 folds. ** Dealing Flop ** : [ Ts, 3s, 3c ] Leonardbump checks. Cypress_Ag bets (125) Leonardbump folds. ** Summary ** Main Pot: 375 Board: [ Ts 3s 3c ] TheAshes05 balance 2125, didn't bet (folded) jtownshend balance 745, didn't bet (folded) tracking105 balance 2470, didn't bet (folded) Leonardbump balance 775, lost 100 (folded) Rage112183 balance 1115, lost 50 (folded) Cypress_Ag balance 770, bet 225, collected 375, net +150 | | Thursday, January 26th, 2006 | | 2:27 am |
I fucking love how I get caught in drama within less the 24 hours of being at school. REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL fucking cool. | | Thursday, January 19th, 2006 | | 2:25 am |
| | Thursday, January 12th, 2006 | | 2:43 am |
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